Jul 19

What I’ve Learned Working in Porn

I’m still around, even if there’s a layer of dust on the page. You should really be stalking me on twitter and facebook to really keep up with what’s going on.

However, for a bit of reading material today, please feast your eyes on my latest post over at OurBigGayborhood, “What I’ve Learned Working in Porn.”

Ouchy the Clown thanks you…

May 20

Another Conversation with God

I’m not here today… I’m over at OurBigGayborhood where I’ve posted my latest conversation with God.

You should totally check it out.

Mar 19

Public Outing

It’s my turn once again over at Our Big Gayborhood.

This month, I ask the question, “Is it ok to publicly out a closeted celebrity or other public figure?”

I’d be appreciative if you’d all go check it out!

You’re Outta Here!

Feb 19

The Homogenization of the Homosexuals

I was asked recently to become a contributor on a project being put together by Lori Hahn. The website is called “Our Big Gayborhood” and as you might imagine, it features gay and lesbian writers from all over writing on all kinds of topics.

I’m happy to announce that my first article has been posted! Here’s a taste:

I was driving from my home in the east bay to San Francisco the other afternoon when a typical California jack-ass driver cut me off. I laid on the horn, cursed the driver with festering toe fungus and considered taking a picture of the car and posting it on Craigslist with a virtual “kick me” sign. While grabbing my camera-equipped cell phone I noticed there was a rainbow sticker on the back of the car.

In typical Jester “Ooh, look, bubbles!” fashion I forgot all about the near-miss and realized it was the first time in ages that I had seen a rainbow displayed on a car.

This got me thinking, “Are we not proud?”

Read the rest of the story over at Our Big Gayborhood

Comments and traffic are greatly appreciated!

Nov 19

Oh. My. Godric.

Um… look who has popped up on the site “Guys with iPhones” today… yes, it’s a NSFW site very popular amongst us gay boys…

Allan Hyde - Godric from True Blood

Allan Hyde - Godric from True Blood


If you don’t recognize him, think back to those couple of awesome episodes of True Blood… He’s Allan Hyde, also known as “Godric.”


You realize of course, this does nothing to dissuade me from stalking him, right?

Feb 04

The Jester Show: Authors of the “I Do” Anthology Edition

Tonight’s the night we get to talk to several of the authors and the editor of “I Do” an anthology in support of marriage equality!

I’ve had a couple of days to read through the book, and so far it’s got a little bit of everything for everyone. Whether you enjoy sci-fi/fantasy stories, romance, vampires, or anything with a rainbow slant, you’re sure to find a story in the book that you enjoy.

The proceeds of this book are being donated to Lambda Legal Fund, an organization instrumental in the continued fight against the infamous California Proposition 8, which attempts to nullify thousands of marriages already performed in the state.

You may have heard me talk a little bit about Prop 8 around election time.


Here’s the book description from the website:

21 authors contributing 20 stories of love and commitment

I Do! An anthology in support of marriage equalityDo you support the right of any human being to marry the person they love? The right to say ‘I Do’ to a life of commitment and sharing with that one special person? We do.

We hope that marriage will soon be a dream that everyone can share. That’s why the following authors of LGBT fiction have donated stories to this anthology, in aid of Lambda Legal Fund’s fight for marriage equality:

Tracey Pennington, Alex Beecroft, Charlie Cochrane, Clare London, Storm Grant, Lisabet Sarai, Sharon Maria Bidwell, Jeanne Barrack, Marquesate, Z.A Maxfield, P.A Brown, Allison Wonderland, Erastes, Zoe Nichols and Cassidy Ryan, Emma Collingwood, Mallory Path, Jerry L. Wheeler, Moondancer Drake, Fiona Glass, Lee Rowan.

All profits from the sale of this anthology will be donated to the Lambda Legal Defense to fight Prop 8 in support of marriage equality for all.

You can read more about the book, and even get a steamy excerpt at the ManLoveRomance Press I Do page.

And of course, you simply MUST join us for what I’m sure is going to be an interesting conversation tonight on The Jester Show. There is a link to the show in the sidebar, you can just go to The Jester Show on TalkShoe homepage.

If you can’t make the show tonight at 7PM Pacific/10PM Eastern, be sure to listen to the archive, or better yet, subscribe to the show in iTunes and never miss another Jester Show!

Nov 30

A Life Changing Moment

Every so often, events transpire in such a way that your life is forever changed.

You might run late for a meeting one day, catch a different train and come face to face with a childhood friend you haven’t seen in 20 years.

You might pull the lever on a slot machine with your last fifty cents and win the million dollar jackpot.

Or you might find yourself staring at a painting in a museum that suddenly, inexplicably alters the way you look at the world around you.

I had one of those moments last night.

UMB and I met up with Lee and Adam in Berkeley and headed into San Francisco for the evening. We met Othurme in the Castro district for dinner with the intent of catching the 10pm showing of the new movie, “Milk.”

I knew the basic story of Harvey Milk. In the sort of way that I could give you a two-sentence explanation of who he was: The first openly-gay man elected to a high-ranking office (City Supervisor of San Francisco). He was assassinated, along with mayor George Moscone, by a fellow Supervisor.

Knowing that Harvey lived in the Castro District, THE gay neighborhood, I thought it would be cool to see the show at the Castro Theater, which sits at the heart of the district.

We purchased our 10pm tickets at 8, walked past the 20 or so people already lined up for the show and headed to the pasta restaurant three doors down for dinner.

When we emerged from the restaurant next door, the line of ticket holders leading into the theater stretched down the block, all around a parking lot, back along the sidewalk two blocks down from the theater.

I had never been to the Castro Theater before, though I had wanted to, especially for the annual “Sound of Music” sing-a-long. I wasn’t sure how many people the theater held, but I had originally figured it would be around four or five hundred. There were twice that many people in the line ahead of us. A quick look on the iPhone revealed that it actually holds 1400. We resigned ourselves to the fact that we would likely not be able to sit together as a group.

They opened the doors, and we shrewdly decided to head directly for the balcony, rather than stand around downstairs looking for 5 seats together. We ended up with what I would consider the best seats in the house. Front row center of the second tier in the balcony. No one in front of us, plenty of leg room and a clear view of the entire space.

The theater itself is beautiful, with tons of Spanish-influenced architecture and murals and sweeping fabrics. At the center of the stage was a real-live organist entertaining the crowd with showtunes, and selections from The Carpenters, Barry Manilow, and of course, Over The Rainbow.

The lights lowered, the crowd fell silent, and the movie opened with actual news footage of then-City Superintendent-now-California-state-senator Dianne Feinstein standing on the steps of City Hall announcing to a crowd of reporters that George Moscone and Harvey Milk had been shot and killed.

The camera moves to a sweeping shot of San Francisco, zooming in on the Castro District, past the famous Castro Theater entrance to the apartment just 2 blocks down where Sean Penn, as Harvey, is speaking into a tape recorder. He’s recording a now famous “In case of death by assassination” speech that serves as the framework for the entire film.

I was already crying. I’m not sure that I ever actually stopped.

There was this surreal sensation from seeing the Castro Theater on the screen while sitting inside it. The seamless interweaving of stock 70’s footage of the police beating gay citizens on Castro Street right outside, and virtually every scene set in this neighborhood that I’ve spent countless hours in over the past 10 years.

What was most significant… and therefore life changing, was this sudden connection of these historical facts of which I was only somewhat aware, with the personalization of this story that was unfolding on screen.

It’s like reading about the Battle at Gettysburg then suddenly smelling cordite, sulpher, and fresh blood and transporting through time to watch from the front line.

The struggle that Harvey went through to not only gain the respect of the fairly unorganized gay community was clearly illustrated. Gus Van Sant, the director, did an incredible job of reminding the audience of the political climate. Even in San Francisco in the early 70’s, the police harassed people in gay bars, many were beaten and killed, lost their jobs, and faced daily dangers just walking the streets of this mostly Irish-Catholic neighborhood.

Some men are born great; others achieve greatness; still others have greatness thrust upon them. — Shakespeare’s Twelfth Night

The parallels between the political nightmare of Proposition 6, (part of the giant Anita Bryant brigade, which would make it illegal for any homosexuals, or even supporters of gay rights, from being able to teach kids in public schools) and Proposition 8 from this past election are unmistakable.

The difference is, we don’t have a Harvey Milk to lead us. We have struggled to stir the anger and frustration and express it in such a demonstrative way that it makes a difference.

Harvey figured out how to motivate and keep mobs of gays from destroying the city when anti-gay legislation passed. Instead, he lead them five miles up Market Street to the steps of City Hall, chanting and carrying signs demanding action.

This was the genesis of the Gay Freedom Parade that is celebrated in cities across the globe.

He demonstrated the power of gay consumers and the damage a boycott against those companies and organizations who would oppress us.

He encouraged the community to frequent those businesses that respect and value us. To this day, the gay community is among the most loyal to their brands.

He mentored a young man, Cleve Jones, who many years later organized the creation of the AIDS Quilt, one of the most striking, emotionally stirring visuals I’ve ever had the honor of seeing.

He explained the importance of coming out. How those people who actually know an out gay person as a friend or family member are twice as likely to vote to protect our civil rights.

I don’t expect that everyone who sees this film (and you are all going to see it right?) will experience the same profound reaction that I have. What I do expect, is that those who see it will come away with a new understanding of the struggle gay people in this country experience daily.

Sean Penn, who has never been one of my favorite actors, BECAME Harvey in this film. The supporting cast was impeccable. The script is full of clever banter, inspiring speeches, and even manages to make Dan White, Milk’s assassin, come across not as some evil movie villain, but as a flawed and frustrated young man who made a few poor decisions that changed the course of MY history.

The direct impact on my life that Harvey Milk has had is immeasurable. And until last night, viewing this movie, I had no idea.

Watching the film with my best friends, in a theater full of over a thousand people with these common struggles, common experiences, made the night absolutely magical.

Sitting on the ledge in front of his apartment minutes after seeing the film about his life, incredibly special. (Thanks for taking the photo, Othurme!)

I’ve learned a lesson that I can’t unlearn.

And I now have someone that I can thank.

If a bullet should enter my brain, let that bullet destroy every closet door. –Harvey Milk

Nov 17

A New War Has Begun

And frankly, I’m scared shitless.

I’ll likely have thoughts to share about this turn of events later today. For now, I’m crying and watching history repeat itself and unfold simultaneously.

The whole story can be found at Joe.My.God.

Nov 06

Melissa Etheridge has a plan…

Republished from Out In Hollywood because I love Melissa Etheridge, and I am on board with no longer paying my taxes…

Melissa Etheridge has written a blistering piece for the site The Daily Beast expressing her outrage over the passage of Proposition 8 by California voters. Here it is, in its entirety…

Okay. So Prop 8 passed. Alright, I get it. 51% of you think that I am a second class citizen. Alright then. So my wife, uh I mean, roommate? Girlfriend? Special lady friend? You are gonna have to help me here because I am not sure what to call her now. Anyways, she and I are not allowed the same right under the state constitution as any other citizen. Okay, so I am taking that to mean I do not have to pay my state taxes because I am not a full citizen. I mean that would just be wrong, to make someone pay taxes and not give them the same rights, sounds sort of like that taxation without representation thing from the history books.

Okay, cool I don’t mean to get too personal here but there is a lot I can do with the extra half a million dollars that I will be keeping instead of handing it over to the state of California. Oh, and I am sure Ellen will be a little excited to keep her bazillion bucks that she pays in taxes too. Wow, come to think of it, there are quite a few of us fortunate gay folks that will be having some extra cash this year. What recession? We’re gay! I am sure there will be a little box on the tax forms now single, married, divorced, gay, check here if you are gay, yeah, that’s not so bad. Of course all of the waiters and hairdressers and UPS workers and gym teachers and such, they won’t have to pay their taxes either.

Gay people are born everyday. You will never legislate that away.

Oh and too bad California, I know you were looking forward to the revenue from all of those extra marriages. I guess you will have to find some other way to get out of the budget trouble you are in.


When did it become okay to legislate morality? I try to envision someone reading that legislation “eliminates the right” and then clicking yes. What goes through their mind? Was it the frightening commercial where the little girl comes home and says, “Hi mom, we learned about gays in class today” and then the mother gets that awful worried look and the scary music plays? Do they not know anyone who is gay? If they do, can they look them in the face and say “I believe you do not deserve the same rights as me”? Do they think that their children will never encounter a gay person? Do they think they will never have to explain the 20% of us who are gay and living and working side by side with all the citizens of California?

I got news for them, someday your child is going to come home and ask you what a gay person is. Gay people are born everyday. You will never legislate that away.

I know when I grew up gay was a bad word. Homo, lezzie, faggot, dyke. Ignorance and fear ruled the day. There were so many “thems” back then. The blacks, the poor … you know, “them”. Then there was the immigrants. “Them.” Now the them is me.

I tell myself to take a breath, okay take another one, one of the thems made it to the top. Obama has been elected president. This crazy fearful insanity will end soon. This great state and this great country of ours will finally come to the understanding that there is no “them”. We are one. We are united. What you do to someone else you do to yourself. That “judge not, lest ye yourself be judged” are truthful words and not Christian rhetoric.

Today the gay citizenry of this state will pick themselves up and dust themselves off and do what we have been doing for years. We will get back into it. We love this state, we love this country and we are not going to leave it. Even though we could be married in Mass. or Conn, Canada, Holland, Spain and a handful of other countries, this is our home. This is where we work and play and raise our families. We will not rest until we have the full rights of any other citizen. It is that simple, no fearful vote will ever stop us, that is not the American way.

Come to think of it, I should get a federal tax break too…